This is what I am doing for my self-portrait - revised

So of course in the process of making this film, I have been informed that my boyfriend is moving because of work... AGAIN.

The overall idea is still the same, how much we've grown, but now my initial idea of being content is shifting to being uneasy but also excited. I also never got still photos, because my camera ate the film, so I'm just using more archive and personal footage to replace it. There's gonna be three acts: when we're together, knowing he's leaving and being hopeful for our reunion.

I'm honestly really sad about it, but I want to make something that is deeper than that.

This is what I'm doing for the art installation

I'm directing, which is scary, but we all have an active role in the creation of our piece. Since we are a group of modern females, we have decided to make our piece represent something that is representative of women in our society (it's so cliche I know). We are going to have a lot going on, from pads outlining the screen of our projector, to a drum circle, to an active chant/protest complete with signs. The projection is basically going to be a collage of men talking about women, which we will overwhelm as the piece goes on. as director, I am responsible for the cohesiveness and overall vision. I will also be in charge of getting the equipment. I'm very excited.

This is a response to the presentation on OK GO

So these guys are really cool! I love seeing music video artist that are considered to be influential like these guys are. The way they developed as artists over time was really cool to watch. My favorite piece of theirs was definitely The Writings on the Wall because it was I think the most impressive one.

This is a response to Cucalorus

First, I don't want to volunteer again next year. I did not have the time or the energy to do much else and that really pissed me off. I accomplished all of my goals, but I didn't have as much fun as I could have.

One thing I learned as a filmmaker is that I really just need to submit something. I want to have my own film in a festival, and be able to really engage with an audience.

My favorite experience was the Fiddlehead Shorts. Maybe it's because that was the last screening I volunteered for or maybe it was seeing Shoot the Duck for the first time that made it so great.

One thing that surprised me, and I should've known better, was that they were very unorganized. A lot of blame was pushed around when something didn't go right and I was not a fan of that. The emcees were all super nice, but they never listened to me when I said there was a short filmmaker that wanted to have a Q&A. I think they need to change their format a little to be more accommodating to volunteers and filmmakers.

Photos and Videos:

In order: Screen Coordinating In Reality and then Lez Bomb, 

Me and Katarina at Dead in the Water, 

Thalian Hall before Dr. Jekyll, 

Me Connor, Lily and Andrea after Dr. Jekyll, 

Anya's art after the Fiddlehead Shorts

 

This is what I'm doing for my Self-Portrait

The basic idea behind my self-portrait is that I want it to show how I have grown, and continue to grow since my boyfriend returned from deployment. It's kind of going to be a collaboration between the two of us, which was obviously not possible before.

After shooting on film for the first time, I want to experiment more with it! I am going to shoot some stills of Tj, and have him take some of me. They'll be used rhythmically in the film. I plan to use a clip of a song for some of the film, and I will create a sound design for the rest that uses natural sounds and words from our mouths. I'm also going to use a lot of close-ups. I want to write out statements as well, sort of like in "Jumpa Jumpa" or I will just add text and edit it so it looks cool.

I'm contemplating cutting my hair on camera, but that's probably not gonna happen.

Edit wise, I will be pulling inspiration from a few music videos. I want this film to be simple, but elegant and dynamic.

Inspo Videos:

Music:

This is a Response to Assignment 1

So I had never thought that I would ever be good at, or enjoy, a group assignment like this. There was so much work involved in everyone's part and I am so proud of what we accomplished.

When it comes to sound, I feel wayyyyy more confident in my abilities to record and assemble a soundscape. I'm actually looking forward to doing so for the next assignment and I already have ideas! I think that having this ability is going to make me a better filmmaker. I feel a need to create my own soundscapes now instead of just using music for a concept.

This is what I am going to be doing at Cucalorus

Intentions:

I am trying to network the crap out of Cucalorus. I want to break out of my shell and talk to people that I find interesting. I'm going to learn about a new role in film festivals, screen coordination, and I am going to have the opportunity to see films that I know I will find interesting. 

Plan of Action:

You know I've already made a schedule in my bullet journal! 

Challenges

1. Talk to my favorite filmmaker (not one I am screen coordinating for)
2. Introduce myself to Dan Brawley
3. Ask a question in a Q&A

This is a Response to Shooting on Film for the First Time

Shooting on film was not like I had expected it would be. I have discovered that while you don't really know how your shot is going to turn out, the true thrill is in the unknown. It was also weird to see my shots come out in black and white since color was what I was seeing initially. I had no idea that there was so much that needed to go into the shots as well. Like using the light meter, adjusting the ISO and so on. Shooting on auto makes photography seem easy, and shooting on film has made me appreciate the art form even more. I intend to shoot again, alone, so my true vision can hopefully be seen.