This is a Reflection of This Class

Loved it.


I have learned a lot in this class. From seeing new experimental filmmakers to how to use After Effects. I am gonna steal Martha Colburn's technique at some point because I think it is so amazing and it is something I think I will enjoy doing by myself. I learned how to work under pressure without having a complete mental breakdown like I did this summer. I know more about the inner workings of Cucalorus, which made me realize I never want to work for them again as much as I love their festival. I think the biggest thing I learned is that I can make films on my own, and I really don't need or want anyone's help. 

I am always the proudest when my work is done by myself and for myself. My self-portrait compared to the one I made over the summer feels a lot more authentic and raw to me even though I feel like the topic of the earlier one was more compelling. I feel more confident in my work now, enough to maybe even let others see it outside of the class. I have a huge desire to create and I just need to find the time to do it. I'm going to set deadlines for myself, and I'm going to enjoy it. 

I loved everything about this class, even the extreme amounts of stress that came from it. I met new friends and feel closer to ones I knew before. I am inspired by the filmmakers we saw and the filmmakers that I have seen my classmates become, especially Lily. She is amazing and I love her passion and wish I had even a fraction of it. She has taught me to work hard for the sake of yourself, and not necessarily because you have to. She's my hero. 

I can't wait to create more.

This is a Reflection on Aaron Koblin

I loved Aaron Koblin!!! I didn't know what crowdsourcing was before this and now that I know I am super into it. The Johnny Cash Project reminded me of Loving Vincent. I want to play with the VR website, Within, some more. I feel like Aaron Koblin would be perceived as the future of experimental, which I don't necessarily agree with. I hope to see more work like his, but also see things that are like Maya Deren, being made.

This is a Reflection on Guy Madden

I could totally see how Guy Madden was influenced by David Lynch before it was mentioned. I really wanted to see more of his work, because I was very intrigued. The ways he played tribute to the earlier German Expressionist and Surrealist artists was amazing, while still making them his.

This is a Reflection on Marlon Riggs

So I love Marlon Riggs. I saw Tongues Untied last summer and it was so amazing. I loved being able to learn more about him in this presentation. I think his background at Harvard was interesting and insightful about how his work functioned. I loved his notion on people, that they are all "like gumbo."

This is a Reflection on My Self-Portrait

I went into this assignment thinking I would make something happy. Something that shows how thrilled I am to have the love of my life back in my life.
Then it changed to me being sad that I would have to leave him when I graduate.
And then it changed to him leaving me again, and very soon at that. January 15th is the latest he can move to NYC.
Filmmaking for me has truly become an avenue for me to work out the pain in my life. It started with the self-portrait of me when he was gone, then I made 2 short films about my anxiety surrounding Hurricane Florence, and now I've made this piece that highlights how truly sad I am that he is leaving me again.
I showed the film to him, and he was very taken aback. He wasn't expecting it, especially since he was there when I shot the film. He told me that it really hit him hard too, and honestly, that's exactly what I wanted him to say.

This is what I am doing for my self-portrait - revised

So of course in the process of making this film, I have been informed that my boyfriend is moving because of work... AGAIN.

The overall idea is still the same, how much we've grown, but now my initial idea of being content is shifting to being uneasy but also excited. I also never got still photos, because my camera ate the film, so I'm just using more archive and personal footage to replace it. There's gonna be three acts: when we're together, knowing he's leaving and being hopeful for our reunion.

I'm honestly really sad about it, but I want to make something that is deeper than that.

This is what I'm doing for the art installation

I'm directing, which is scary, but we all have an active role in the creation of our piece. Since we are a group of modern females, we have decided to make our piece represent something that is representative of women in our society (it's so cliche I know). We are going to have a lot going on, from pads outlining the screen of our projector, to a drum circle, to an active chant/protest complete with signs. The projection is basically going to be a collage of men talking about women, which we will overwhelm as the piece goes on. as director, I am responsible for the cohesiveness and overall vision. I will also be in charge of getting the equipment. I'm very excited.